Update

For the first time in a long time, the sun was finally out. I've been feeling quite tired recently, so the sunshine was much needed. Trying to keep up the motivation of exercising every day and eating healthily has proven difficult for the past two weeks. I need to get back on it. 

Christopher has been here for a week now. He arrived on the Thursday, 29th at 8:00 pm. We've been pretty lazy by playing games, cuddling, eating junk food and sleeping but it's been so fun. He downloaded lots of Nintendo 64 games, so we've been playing them on the laptop with an emulator and Xbox controllers. Currently I'm playing The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time, which is awesome! He arrived with lots of gifts for me... he spoils me! He bought me a cookie monster t-shirt, lots of sweets and crisps, Fallout: New Vegas because I mentioned to him that I wanted to play it. He also got me two double cheeseburgers and an apple pie from McDonald's, only because I nagged him about it for weeks before he came up. I've had a surprise for him for weeks, which has been so difficult to not tell him. So finally being able to give him the surprise was so exciting! I bought him and I a Death Note each, the whole Death Note manga Black Edition books as well as his favourite Harribo Peaches sweets. So with our Death Notes and our Death Note t-shirts, we'll look awesome!

It was our one month yesterday, so we spend the day relaxing and we had a takeaway, bought lots of snacks and ended up playing some drinking games. I'm truly enjoying all my time with Christopher, and it's going to be so hard to say goodbye to him. Luckily he'll be here for another couple of weeks, and then we'll go down to England for my pre birthday celebrations! I'm so excited! :D 

Motivation

My birthday is still just over a month away but we're already starting to plan for it and I'm so excited! Christopher will be coming up to visit next Thursday (23rd) for a couple of weeks and he'll be coming back down to England with us the week before my birthday. My Nana is going to contact the photographer, so hopefully I'll be able to get my photos done. Christopher has been buying my birthday presents already and I think he's more excited about my birthday than I am! I can't believe I'm going to be 21 next month. 

Christopher and I have started watching Death Note and I LOVE it. I'm so stubborn about watching or starting new things and I decided in my head that I wouldn't like it, so I haven't watched it until now. I've heard so many great things about it but I didn't believe it until now. It's definitely in my top 10 anime's! I have spent far too much money already on some of the merchandise. I've got an "L" t-shirt and Christopher has got a white "Death Note" t-shirt. We're going to be the coolest couple ever! (Well, so we think.)

After my breakup, I've been a lot more determined to exercise and it's finally starting to pay off. I feel so much better in myself and have gained a lot more confidence. I promised to push myself more and do things that I haven't had the confidence to do before. Now that I've lost a lot more weight, I am slowly starting to show my legs and arms more, plus I'm wearing more fitted clothing. For most of my life, I have never had the confidence to do that, so it's such an accomplishment for me. I'm so happy!

Thanks to Christopher and exercise, I feel like a new person. I can't be happier with my progress at the moment, and I'm determined to keep this going.

Changes

So many things have happened in such a short amount of time. Where do I begin...

Christopher asked me out! I was worried about getting into a relationship again as I'm still trying to get over my previous one, however he makes me happy and he is the reason why I don't want to go back to Albin. Christopher knows that it will take time, but I want to move on and he is the one I want to move on with. So as of the 29th March, I am officially his girlfriend. It's crazy to think that as I've had a crush on him since I was 13 and all I've ever wanted was to have a chance with him. I was crazy about him for most of my teen years, and I'd get so excited when I thought of the possibility of being with him. The thought of it was just too perfect. We've known each other since we were babies, our families know each other and are friends. As I've got to know him properly, I've realised how amazing he actually is. He is the most caring and loving guy who has the same interests as me. He makes me feel whole again. I have so much more motivation and strength because of him. I don't think I'll ever be this lucky again. When I saw him last year at Claire's wedding, I remember just looking at him, wishing that he would look at me. And now he does... 

Christopher has also spoilt me for Easter! The first present to arrive was a lovely card, which nearly made me cry. The second one was some gorgeous flowers, and the third arrived today which was two of my favourite chocolate eggs, with my favourite Guylian Belgian Chocolate Seashells. I've had three days of presents... I really am the luckiest girl in the world!!!

Today was my Grandma's birthday, and we took her out for some vintage afternoon tea at the Park Guest House & Restaurant. There were all sorts of cute little sandwiches and cakes on the table. It was a very lovely experience. I managed to get tipsy off half a glass of Prosecco for the first time in my life and as soon as I got home, I fell asleep for a couple of hours. 

I now have my first ever hangover. I have a headache, my eyes are hurting, I feel sick, I'm so thirsty and I have a horrible taste in my mouth. This is why I don't drink.