Things are finally starting to get a lot easier, and I'm a lot happier for it. I've made some small changes in my life, and already I feel so much more positive. I'm exercising a lot more, eating more healthily and I'm rarely on the PC. I have a lot of things to organise and plan before my trip to England! I'm booking my driving lessons soon and I've decided that I will do a photography course in college, which I'm so excited about. It's only been about two months and already I feel like a different person.
I managed to spend £230.50 on bedding and curtains on Tuesday. It's nice how small things like that can change the whole look of a room. The room is a lot lighter and more modern. It's like a hotel!
I've been thinking about what I should do for my 21st birthday, and I've decided that I would like to get some professional photos done of me. I've been following this photographer who lives in Wellingborough for over a year and her work is absolutely fantastic. If I can get some photos done by her, I will be so incredibly happy. I'll need to buy a new outfit for the photo shoot, plus get my hair and make-up done professionally so it'll be quite expensive. Totally worth it!
I can't wait to go down to England and see all of my friends and family. I was thinking of staying for a month, rather than a week or two so that I can spend more time with them. Christopher and I have a deal that if I can manage to do one proper push up, he will buy me a kebab (haha). I'm really looking forward to seeing him, as the last time I saw him was at the wedding. I also have my day with Jordan to look forward to. It'll be our late Valentine's Day treat to each other. I'm so excited!
Today we found out that Stuart Cripple died. Rest in peace, little guy. :( 16/02/15 - 28/03/15
I finally said goodbye to Albin on Friday and it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my life. I know that I wasn't with him for long, but I truly did love him and I really hoped that I would be with him for a long time. I've given up hope that he will come back and try to fight for my love. It's hard to say goodbye, but I need to be strong. I've got other people in my life that deserve my time and attention, and it's time to give them what they deserve.
I'm planning on going to England in April and/or for my birthday. If I can meet up with Jordan and Christopher, I'll be really happy. It's definitely something to look forward to! :)
I'm thinking of taking some dance classes, and to take up the violin and piano again. I'm bored and I'd love to take up some old hobbies. I still have my piano at home, but I can't find my old violin so I'll have to buy another one... it's time to spend my money that I had saved up on things that will make me happy.
Everything is changing at home, and I really need to move out of here. I love my great grandma, but the whole house is turning into a retirement home. Life at home is incredibly stressful, and I don't know if I can cope any more.
I was up all last night with Christopher, playing Fable III. I'm bored of World of Warcraft and I barely play it now and I'm really considering quitting altogether. I'm just waiting for the spazmong to wake up, so we can carry on playing Fable III. UGH. I'M SO IMPATIENT.
It's been awhile since I last made a post so I thought it was about time to make an update.
Things have been getting slightly easier after my break up. My appetite is finally coming back and I'm not nearly as stressed as I was before. I've started my healthy eating and exercise again, which is really helping with my motivation. I'm trying to leave my comfort zone a bit more with certain things, to help with my self confidence. I finally plucked up the courage and went for the pink ombre. I was nervous about it at first, but I absolutely love it. It's made me realise that taking risks isn't so bad, because sometimes it can become something positive. Through all of the heartbreak, I know that I'm not alone. My friends have been so amazing to me, and I really don't know what I'd do without them. They're helping me remember what it's like to laugh and smile again. I haven't had this much fun in a long time.
I'm slowly gaining my strength back, and I'm starting to let go of the pain. I still have my off days, and I find myself thinking about the past, but the pain of it is slowly starting to disappear, either that or it's been long enough to forget what it was like. Charlie hasn't been very well recently and he fainted on his walk this morning, so I've been worried sick about him. He's been to the vets and they've taken a blood test, and given him some new antibiotics. I really hope he gets better soon.
The weather is starting to improve which is good because the sunny weather has been much needed. I spent the other day lying in the sun, listening to relaxing music. I forgot what it was like to smile, and now that it's coming back, I feel this warmth in my chest.
It's time to concentrate on me now, and make myself feel better. New hair colour, new perfume, new glasses, new outlook on life... it's time to build myself again, and become someone who no one will want to ever let go.
