He puts the blame on me, and says that I've created a monster, but he has been this monster long before I arrived. It was always deep inside of him, and now he's just letting it go. I still believe he is a good person, but I can't carry on trying to be with someone who is fine with hurting me. I put my trust in him, and believed what he promised me. I don't regret falling in love with him and I only hope that one day he will look back and see that the mistake he made was hurting me and leaving me. I know that I wasn't perfect, but all I did was love him. I would have stuck by him through everything. He believes that I made him feel bad every day by bringing up problems all the time, but the main problem was him. He couldn't show me affection and love on a daily basis, but the times that he did, I was so incredibly happy, so I tried so hard to bare with it. He couldn't see what he was doing wrong. I spent all of my time thinking that it was my fault, and that I was the problem. I was putting myself through pain trying to carry on with the relationship, but I did it for him. I just need to be strong, and know that it wasn't all my fault.
All I can do is be myself, and find someone who truly deserves my love.
I just wish it was him... for now.
Goodbye,
"18/07/2014 22:02:45: Babbss: Ye, and I'm sorry, I'm a fucking idiot sometimes... Most of the times, I can't even see how much you do for me, and I'm just a blind idiot...
18/07/2014 22:06:57: Babbss: So don't think you are aweful, you are the opposite..."
We were both blind idiots.